아 그렇구나 했었는데 사귀고 몇 달 뒤에 지는 미국인이래...
멕시칸이라고 했으면서 뭔 말이냐고 물어보니 멕시칸이 맞지만 미국에서 태어났다고... 때릴 뻔...
그렇게 사귀다 졸업을 앞두고 취업 준비 시즌이 다가와서 헤어지지 않으려면 어떻게 해야 하나 대화도 하고 고민도 하다가 일단 살던 지역에서 취업활동해 보자 했는데 정말 감사하게도 중소기업에서 날 채용해 줬어
넌 나보다 어리지만 나는 지금도 40이라 나이도 많아서 미국 가도 제대로 된 일자리 구할 수 있을지 모르는데 더 미래에는 건강이라던가 조건 불충분으로 같이 못 갈 수 있는데 그럼 그때 헤어질 거냐
아직 집도 차도 없어서 가까운데 만 찾아보고 있으니...
모아놓은 돈이라도 있으면 좋은 텐데 난 30 넘어서 대학 갔다 신입으로 취업했었어서 모은 돈 없고 얘는 돈 모으는 애가 아니라 원래 없어서 둘 다 그 지거든 ㅠㅠ
부모님 전혀 눈치 주지 않고 이제 가족이라고 잘 챙겨주고 다른 친인척 분들도 거부감 없이 잘 대해주고 있는데 나이가 있으니 스스로 눈치 보여서 빨리 독립해야 할 텐데라는 마음이 크네
그래도 문득문득 내가 어쩌다 결혼이란 걸 하게 되어 나이 40 넘어 미국까지 오게 되었나라는 생각이 들고 내가 맞는 길을 선택한 건가라는 조그마한 의구심도 드네
후회하는 건 아니지만 이 나이에 영어 공부하는 백수라 좀 답답한 맘이 들어 글 끄적거려봤어.
To briefly explain my history, I went to Japan to study when I was in my early 30s
In Korea, I couldn't go to college and only worked in the service industry, but the biggest reason was the worry about the uncertain future and the inferiority complex about why I was like this
I was in my mid-30s after graduating from college, and I was worried about getting a job, but I didn't want to live a life of regret near death without trying it, so I took the plunge
I chose Japan because I had been dating Japanese for 8 years in Korea, so I could speak a foreign language
Around the end of the second grade, a foreigner who seemed to be a Latina came to the Keiba where he sometimes worked part-time on weekends, and he just talked with a customer a little bit and went back
But later, I saw it on the app, and I naturally met it while talking
Starting with that, we met a few more times and started dating
The funny thing is that when I first met him, he said Mexico
I said, "Oh, I see." But I heard you're an American who loses a few months after dating...
You said you were Mexican, but when I asked what you meant, you said you were Mexican, but you said you were born in the United States... you almost hit me...
After dating like that, as the job preparation season approached before graduation, I talked about what I should do not to break up, and I thought about it. But thankfully, a small and medium-sized company hired me
There weren't many companies in Kyushu, so the probability was low
Thankfully, we were able to continue the meeting
When we were together a little more than five years ago, there was talk of returning to the U.S. due to family health issues, and there were so many problems with this
There were many reasons for the trouble, but the biggest reason is that this one has a lot of bad memories, so it's a trauma
I don't want to go back to the United States, but I'll go back someday
I tried a lot to come to Japan, and now I like life and now I am afraid to go back to the U.S
If you're going to go back someday, let's go together when I'm a year younger
You're younger than me, but I'm still 40 years old, so I don't know if I can find a decent job even if I go to the U.S., but in the future, I can't go with you because of my health or lack of conditions. Then will you break up then
It doesn't matter if you live in Japan without going back to the U.S. until you die
We fought over this issue and almost broke up a few times, but fortunately, it ended well and we decided to go to the United States together
I need a visa to go, so I came to the U.S. as an Eastar, registered my marriage, and went back to Japan to apply for my spouse's visa
I went through various procedures for about a year and a half, and it's been a little over a month since I entered the U.S
Now I'm looking for a part-time job while studying English, and she's looking for a job
I've seen a few interviews, but I haven't heard anything good yet
I don't have a house or a car yet, so I'm just looking for it near...
It would be nice to have some money saved, but I went to college after 30 and got a new job. I don't have any money saved because I'm not a person who collects money, but he doesn't have any, so I lose both
Besides, I've been living with English and I've talked with her in Japanese, so I'm studying English because I'm completely at the bottom, but I think it will take a long time
I don't care about my parents at all, and I take good care of them because they are my family, and other relatives are treating them well without feeling rejected. I'm old, so I have a strong feeling that I need to move out quickly
Maybe it's because he saw his family, but fortunately, he's adjusting better to life in the U.S. than I thought, but I feel sorry for him because he's stressed out about his job
But it's only been a month and I'm working hard, so I'm positive that it's going to work out
Still, I suddenly wonder how I got married and came to the United States over the age of 40, and I have a small doubt that I chose the right path
I don't regret it, but I felt a little frustrated because I'm unemployed studying English at this age.